Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I hope I have made the right decision

I have decided to go back on the 1st phase of lighter life for 4 weeks. I think this is right for me as I am having real problems keeping things going on route to management.

Having talked it over tonight with my lighter life counsellor we agreed that my mind is not keeping up with my body. Denying myself food and controlling portion sizes are skills that I do not have and need more time to learn.

Having been morbidly obese for 30 years My mind cannot adjust to being just a bit overweight. I was fully intending to do 4 weeks of abstinence in august so all I have really done is bring that forward to now.

So from tomorrow morning I am back on phase one. I am very sure I can do that because I have proved that already for 12 weeks.

I really do hope this is the right decision.

When I started this lighter life diet on January 6th I thought it was only going to be for 8 weeks. Now I know that this is a long term project and will probably take the whole year to complete. I will try and get into all the materials that lighter life provide to try and train my mind to accept boundaries with food. I have never done this in 52 years so it will be very hard.

To depressed to write food diary.
From tomorrow it will be
B: Shake
L: Thai chilli Soup
D:Shake
S:Nutty Bar

No point me recording this but at least I know I will stick to it without temptation.

Found a Great Diet Blog / Forum site for lighter life

I was toodling around in google search and found a diet blog called minimins which is an internet community of people who are trying to lose weight.

I have joined up and started posting already. I had immediate responses to my posts.Everyone seems very helpful and full of empathy and understanding.

I wish I had found it sooner but I have found it now - So another resource to help me in My struggle to lose weight is added.

Food Diary Today is a prediction as I am only half way through
B: Raspberry Shake
L: Banana, Apple, yoghurt
D: Chicken and salad
S: Nutty Bar - Glass of Cognac ( Very important week 5 addition)

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Having real problems keeping focus on my diet

I have really struggled today to keep focus on my lighter life diet today.

In Plain English that means that I cheated with some peanuts and 2 cheese rolls.

The Route to management is so much harder than the first phase of lighter life.
Then the rules were easy to understand and follow. Now I feel like a kid in disneyland wanting to see everything in the next 5 minutes.
No food diary today
Too depressing

Monday, April 28, 2008

Weigh in was dissappointing but not unexpected

I had an increase of 2 lbs on my weigh in today. Considering my binge this week I feel I got what I deserve.
All I have got to do is stick to my diet this week and it will come back off.
Yes that's all I have got to do.
I went to the gym and had a sauna tonight which always cheers me up.
I am hoping to do 3 a week from now on now I am allowed to do the gym.
My heart rate is very healthy - normal in fact and my recovery readings are normal which is great.
This lighter life diet takes some getting used to but that's a good thing. Better than getting used to the idea of dying young of a heart attack or stroke.

Food today
B: Vanilla Shake
L: Caramel Shake - No time to cook
D: Chicken salad wrap - at the sports centre after sauna
S: nutty and toffee bar - 2 bars because this was better than binging

Techniques for weight loss management on lighter life

I've been thinking about what techniques for weight loss management I am using. What am I actually doing to keep me managing my weight loss.
The main technique is that as a result of following the lighter life diet program I no longer spend every waking minute thinking about food.
When I do think about food I am much more circumspect than before. I think rationally about whether I am really hungry and what I can eat that is sensible.
So what I am not doing is dashing out to the nearest fast food place and tucking in.
It is also very important to have a good stock of permitted foods in the fridge. When I feel I must have a snack I tuck into fruit or raw vegetables. So far so good as I have pretty much maintained my weight loss.
The other technique is to think before eating. Checking that the food is allowed before deciding to eat it. This is all very obvious to non dieters but not to me - until now

Sunday, April 27, 2008

A long long sunday on this diet

Just occasionally in a year nothing happens on a sunday. Today was one of those days. All I could think about was sticking to my lighter life diet. I thought about it so much that my mind wandered onto what would happen if I didn't stick to it.
These mental conversations are interminable. But i did stick to it.
Weigh in tomorrow which will keep me motivated
B: Fresh Fruit
L: Rump steak with baked parsnips and cauliflower, Strawberries
D: Grapes, banana apple and pear
S: Slim fast bar (run out of lighter life ones - honest)

Saturday, April 26, 2008

A bit of a crash on my lighter life diet

I have put on 2 lbs due to my own stupidity and cheating. I thought I would just try out a few banned foods ahead of time. After all how bad could a bit of snacking be for me.
This is the snack listed out for you
  • 2 fried eggs,
  • a plate of oven chips
  • 4 slices of bread with butter and marmalade
  • 1 lighter life snack bar - see it wasn't all bad!
  • 2 slim fast snack bars
  • 2 glasses of cotes de rhone red wine

They all tasted delicious. But of course I have now put on weight.
I justified my binge eating by saying to myself that as I haven't cheated to date it would be ok
Hopefully I have got this crooked thinking out of my system and can concentrate on my route to management again.

So food diary today
B: apple, orange and banana (Iforgot I was supposed to have a shake)
L: Bacon and egg on a large salad
D: Aubergine and chilli quinoa stir fry, Strawberries
S: Nutty lighter life snack bar

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

5 Stone celebration over - now back to the diet

I had a real binge yesterday and had a mini ginger biscuit and 2 digestives with cheese.

OK - not much of a binge but good enough as a reward for myself losing all this weight.

Back to the rules today on my management track. My housegroup tonight were amazed at the further weight loss and said that even the extra 1/2 stone was noticeable. Very encouraging.
The best thing about this route to management part of the diet is the feeling of being in control of food. Food no longer has a hold on me like it used to. I can look at food and smell food and see other people eating banned food and I can simply decide to eat what I want to eat. Simple.
This means that I am sure I will keep the weight off. Very exciting.

I am still in this culture shock of the new body size. It takes a lot of getting used to. But in a good way.

Food Diary for today
B: Raspberry Shake
L: Boiled egg & Cottage Cheese on a salad bed
D: Aubergine and mushroom with quinoa.
S: Nutty Bar

Monday, April 21, 2008

Fantastic weight loss result this week - hit 5 stones

I am cock a hoop with my weigh in today. I have lost a further 6 lbs in the last 2 weeks making a total of 5 stones in 15 weeks.
I'm off to celebrate see you tomorrow

Food diary
B: Raspberry Shake
L: Apple, Tangerine, Celery and dips
D: Quinoa and chilli stir fry - this is becoming a favourite
S: Toffee Bar

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Super fast weight loss diet - it must be bad for you

My lighter life diet is a super fast weight loss diet. But A few of my friends have shown concern that losing weight this fast must be bad for me.
I am not a medical expert but my 2 friends who are doctors have been very supportive of me and both feel that the resultant weight loss will far outweight any negative aspect of this quick weight loss diet.
My knees are better than ever and my general stamina and health is the best it has been for 30 years.
I know that 5 stone in 15 weeks is very extreme but this super fst weight loss diet has delivered a new life for me. The rest of my year and life has been transformed by the quick weight loss.
I do not think a long term diet would have done me any good - I have tried sensible weight loss diets before and they take too long for me to persevere with them
Any Comments?

Next session with my lighter life counsellor tomorrow

I missed last weeks lighter life counselling session because of a bad cold. So tomorrow will be the first weigh in for 2 weeks. I expect to have maintained my weight loss and maybe lost another pound.
I am no longer concerned about putting the weight back on as it is not going back on.
All the doubters have been proved wrong for me as I am keeping the weight off.
I am going to return to the gym on monday and introduce exercise for the first time in 15 weeks.
I actually find the gym quite boring but it is convenient and paid for. It will be so nice not having to enter 19 stones 11 lbs into the gym machines. I will thoroughly enjoy entering 15 stones in. I will not feel like I have to hide the numbers as I put them in.
Apparently the calorie count on the machines will not be as high because of this but that is fine.
This new weight is a culture shock for my mind and body but I like the new culture.

Food Diary Sunday
B: Vanilla Shake
L: Boiled Egg, cottage cheese on salad
D: Chicken Breast with cauliflower and brocolli.
S: Nutty Bar

week 4 food plan for lighter life management

Not many food s added this week. Not a problem because there is so much I can eat now that these are just a bonus.

Additional vegetables for week 4
Artichoke
Asparagus
Aubergine
Bean Sprouts
Brussels Sprouts
Greens (Spring Greens)
Kale
Kohlrabi
Leek
Marrow
Mooli
Okra
Onion
Pak-choi
Shallots
Swiss Chard.

The big difference this week is that I can now have cooked vegetables as well as raw.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Week 3 Foods for Lighter life management

For week 3 of lighter life management has bumper list of foods that can now be eaten in this phase of the lighter life diet.

Additional Protein
  • Lean Bacon
  • Lean Beef
  • Eggs
  • Game
  • Ham
  • Kidney
  • Lamb
  • Liver
  • Pork
  • Offal
  • Quinoa
  • Soya Mince
  • Tempeh
  • Veal
  • Venison

Additional Condiments etc.
  • Cooking Sauces, Fat Free
  • Fruit Juice
  • Smoothies

Fruit
  • Apple
  • Blackberries
  • Blueberries
  • Cherries
  • Clementine
  • Currants
  • Damson
  • fruit salad
  • Grapefruit
  • Kiwi
  • Kumquat
  • Lemon
  • Lime
  • Lychee
  • Mandarin Orange
  • Nectarine
  • Ornage
  • Passion Fruit
  • Peach
  • Pear
  • Plum
  • Pomegranite
  • Raspberries
  • Rhubarb
  • Satsuma
  • Sharon Fruit
  • Strawberries
  • Tangerine

  • Plus Tomatoes

As you've probably guessed this week is a bit of a life saver with a great range of foods to choose from. I knew lighter life diet would get easier - this week it did!

Food Diary O(Sorry Forgot what I had yesterday)

B: Vanilla Shake

L: Egg and Bacon on salad

D: Quinoa and chilli stir fry

S: Nutty Bar and Glass of Cognac ( Not really allowed!)

Thursday, April 17, 2008

My Lighter Life Blog is keeping me on the diet

One of the main reasons for my lighter life blog is to keep me on the diet and it is working. I was with a customer at work and they were offering all sorts of lovely things to eat with my cup of coffee.
I thought about having to record it in my food diary and decided not to cheat. So I am completely smug about that - but a bit of me wanted to tuck in .
This is still a big learning curve.
Food Diary
B: Vanilla Shake
L: Hard Boiled egg on salad
D: Quinoa and Veg Stir Fry
S: Nutty Bar

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Lighter Life Week 2 Foods allowed on management

For week 2 of lighter life management I have been enjoying all of week 1 food plus the following additions.

Dairy
  • Curd Cheese
  • Fromage Frais
  • Skimmed Milk
  • Yoghurt

Dairy Altenatives
  • Rice Milk
  • Soya Fromage Frais
  • Soya Milk
  • Soya Yoghurt

Salad Veg
  • Broccoli
  • Cauliflower
  • Courgette
  • Cucumber
  • fennel
  • Mangetout
  • Mushroom
  • Pepper Sweet
  • Spring Onion

Plus
  • Fat Free Dips
  • Sugar Free Jelly
  • Low Calorie Soft Drinks
I will let you know about week 3 when I have time - lots to type that day.
Today I have been hungry all day and I do not know why.

Food Diary
B: Raspberry Shake
L: Apple, Tangerine, Yoghurt, Sugar Free Jelly
D: Fried Quorn on a bed of salad. Sugar Free Jelly
S: Nutty Bar

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

My sister sees the effect of my lighter life diet

I met my sister today for the first time since starting my lighter life diet. Her reaction was one of huge surprise and shock.

She was absolutely fascinated with the diet but agreed that there is no way she would have the will power to stick with such a strict diet like lighter life.

I also met a customer at work who was stunned by my new appearance - so all this hard work is finally beginning to get a reaction. I am also noticing that I am control of my eating which is a new experience.

I know that I can take or leave any food that comes my way. I do not have to eat it. I do not have to finish a meal if I am full. I can simply refuse food or eat it - I decide. This is a complete revelation that I'm sure is common sense to thin people but brand new to me.

I previously felt compelled to eat any food available and eat it all. Now I don't have to.

Food Diary
B: Raspberry Shake
L: Thai chilli soup - last one!
D: Curry flavoured quorn with brocolli and cauliflower
S: Nutty bar

Monday, April 14, 2008

A bad cold has stopped me in my lighter life tracks

I have a bad head cold and this is making my resolve disappear by the hour. In the past I always ate a lot when I was ill but I do not have that option this time around - but I am still thinking about it. My lighter life counsellor would call that crooked thinking.

That is all very well to know what it is but stopping this crooked thinking moving to make me eat is very difficult. So far so good but I can't speak for tomorrow.

Started Week 3 route to management a day early so that I could eat some Quinoa (A big Favourite) with mixed Veg.

B: Chocolate Shake
L: Thai Chilli Soup
D: Quinoa with mixed veg and a bit of cajun spice
S: Nutty Bar

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Route to management week 1 foods allowed

I was asked yesterday what foods am I now allowed to eat so I thought that it would be good to list each week what new delights I am allowed on my lighter life route to management.

So Week 1 route to management food list:-

Protein
  • Chicken - skinless
  • Cottage Cheese - plain low fat
  • Egg whites - hard boiled
  • Fish - any type
  • Quorn
  • Shellfish
  • Tofu plain
  • Turkey - skinless

Raw Salad
  • Cabbage
  • Celery
  • Chicory
  • Cress
  • Endive
  • Lettuce
  • Salad Leaves
  • Spinach
  • Watercress

Condiments, dressings , sauces etc
  • Chilli Sauce
  • Herbal and fruit teas
  • Lemon Juice
  • Lime Juice
  • Skimmed milk
  • Mustard
  • Salad Dressing - fat free
  • Salt & Pepper
  • Soy sauce
  • Spices - dried or fresh
  • Tabasco Sauce
  • Vinegar
  • Worcester Sauce

I found that these food were more than adequate after 12 weeks of abstinence on lighter life.

Every meal time is fantastic because I have lost nearly 5 stones and can now learn to enjoy real food at my new weight.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Lighter life at a restaurant - a good meal out

We found a restaurant that meant we could eat out on the lighter life diet. Tandori chicken on a bed of green salad leaves.
It was nice to be out and about after 13 weeks not going out for a meal. Made me feel almost human.
My son in law has just completed his second week on the lighter life diet and has lost 20 lbs. He is finding as hard as I did but is sticking with it for now.
The only problem I have at the moment is a bit of a cold which I haven't had for a long time. Because of this I have starting eating fruit 2 days before the route to management instructions say. I think I need the vitamins.
B: Caramel Shake
L: Roast Chicken pieces on a giant salad. 1 Apple, 1 Tangerine, 1 low fat yoghurt
D: Thai chicken Soup
S: Nutty Bar

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

nothing in a restaurant to eat!

I went on a business lunch today and there was nothing I could eat on the menu that fitted in with the lighter life diet. So I had a side salad and diet coke. A bit frustrating as I was looking forward to a meal out for the first time this year.
Food Dairy
B: Caramel Shake
L: Side salad and diet coke
D: Quorn on a salad bed with chilli sauce. Sugar free Jelly
S: Nutty Bar

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I'm Still Effectively on a VLCD

I realised by adding up my daily calories that I am really still on a VLCD ( very low calorie diet ).
My morning shake - lunchtime soup and evening bar add up to about 450 calories. My Teatime meal adds at most 300 calories so my daily total at the moment is 750 calries.
The weight should still be falling off me but it isn't. But that is not a problem as I am on my goal weight now.
I know that once week 3 comes then the fruit and other things will build up my calorie count to well over 1000 per day which I can maintain indefinitely. If I lose a bit more over the next 6 months that will be fine. I'm in no hurry having lost so much weight already on the lighter life diet.
Food diary today
B: Vanilla Shake
L: Thai Chilli soup and low sugar jelly
D: Quorn on a bed of salad and low fat jelly
E: Nutty Bar

Tried coffee with skimmed milk today - very nice - like being reunited with a forgotten friend

Monday, April 7, 2008

Weigh in result after 1 week on management

Well only a pound lost this week but that is not a problem to me. It is so great to have lots of new foods to eat that as long as I stay the same I will be delighted.
Food diary
B: Vanilla Shake
L: Tofu with salad - I will never eat tofu again in my life!
D: Thai chilli soup
S: Fruit Yoghurt, nutty bar and Cola zero with ice

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Route to management is superb for me

I have found the route to management on my lighter life diet much easier than I thought.

The 1 meal a day I am allowed has really helped me keep on the straight and narrow. The meals are a bit repetative but not as bad as the lighter life food packs which can be quite boring.
Having real food has really made a difference to me.

The other good thing is that I think I have lost another 2 lbs this week which is an unexpected bonus. 4 stones 9 lbs in total so far.

At church this morning a whole load of people noticed my weight loss and wanted to know all about it which was great for me. I still need all the encouragement I can get.

A few people wondered how I am going to maintain the weight loss to which I say "no Idea". I have never done this before. I think I will be able to stick with the whole route to management phase but who knows.

I am just beginning to get some energy back now and the dizziness symptoms have gone.

Food Diary for Saturday
B: Caramel Shake
L: Thai Chilli soup
D: Quorn fillets in chilli sauce on a bed of green salad
S: Nutty bar

Sunday
B: Chocolate Shake
L: Chicken in basil and chilli sauce on green salad
D: Thai Chilli Soup
S: Nutty bar

Friday, April 4, 2008

I could get used to this eating

I am hooked on food again but am sticking rigidly to my lighter life route to management.
My scales say I have lost a lb as well which is a bonus. Food diary for last 2 days was the same as wednesday. Tomorrow I am going to have something different. My mum has given me some freah salmon which is great except I don't eat fish - but I might just this once. Many people are at last commenting on my weight loss. I was beginning to think no one was interested.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Just had my second real meal - that's better

I just had chicken with cottage cheese on some salad leaves. This is much better as I have missed food dreadfully. I am concerned that I will put weight on but that is unlikely to happen as I am still on very low calorie intake even with a meal - about 800 per day.
I can sense my inner workings beginning to respond to the meals which is nice. I have been told that my metabolism will wake up and I will have more energy so that will be good.
Food diary
B: Vanilla Shake with added coffee granules
L: Thai chilli Soup
D: Chicken and cottage cheese with some salad leaves
S: Nutty bar

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

First day of route to management on lighter life

Well
The final weigh in on abstinence came out at an extra 6lbs loss
For the 12weeks that is a total of 4 stones 7 lbs. Which I am delighted about.
I have today started what is called "route to management" by the lighter life diet people.
My BMI is still a bit high at 29 but I know I can tackle this later on once I have consolidated the weight at this level.
So today I have my first real food since January 6th. A piece of chicken breast with some low fat cottage cheese. It might sound basic but it was delicious. The thing also was the sensation of eating food again. You cannot imagine how good real food tastes and feels after 12 weeks abstinence.
So food diary day one
B: vanilla shake
L: Thai Chilli Shake
T: Chicken Breast with low fat cottage cheese
S: Nutty Bar